I haven’t done the official ‘blog’ thing for a while now and I’ve been starting to miss it. I kept up with it while living abroad for my friends and family to stay in the know with what I was up to and now I figure I may as continue it on while I’m living back home.
I’m very excited to say that this is the final year of my degree. After commencing studies in 2006, taking plenty of time off to go and find myself (which is still continuing, let me assure you), I now can see the light at the end of the tunnel. After all, it has only been 7 years! To say that I am starting to resent my university would be a slight understatement. At the age of 25, I am well and truly in the ‘elderly’ bracket and need to catch up to the rest of my generation.
I have been studying a Bachelor of Education (Primary). This is Elementary teaching for those in the US or primaire for those en France. To be honest, I have dragged this degree out for so long that I feel like I have milked the life out of it all. Do I really want to do this? The thought of gaining a full time job in a school nearby my hometown makes me sick to the stomach. I’m all for the no-strings attached approach. What if I’ve wasted 7 years on a degree that I will never use?
I get very very worried that I will just be a floater for the rest of my life. Maybe I haven’t found the career I’m wholeheartedly interested in? I absolutely love children and when I’m in the classroom the kids are mine and I value them so highly. It’s just everything else behind the scenes that I can’t seem to fully come to terms with. It’s just a huge commitment. In a way I enjoy not being tied down anywhere for too long, I love the adventure and the unknown. If I had the rest of my life mapped out I know I would be pretty depressed. However, I have a constant feeling of unsettledness within. All of my belongings are scattered across the world and I would love a base to call home that isn’t my parents.
I’m really looking forward to what next year will bring. I know it will be a foreign land but just not sure as to which one yet. At the moment I’m looking at France, America or Africa. I dabble in French and would love to fully master that skill while I’m still young and can just move over there on a whim. Ultimately I would love to combine that with fulfilling a need somewhere in the world.
“I want to make a difference.” (Insert clichéd sigh here) – I understand this term is slightly over used but isn’t that a good thing? It’s amazing that a lot of people have their hearts in the right place and have the best of intentions. It’s just taking those intentions and acting upon them. I want to be held accountable to my goals and aspirations and I really hope the rest of 2012 and 2013 will help me get started on my journey.
I know God has a plan for all of us, that includes me (it’s good to remind myself now and then) and that I do need to patient. In the meantime I just need to relax and enjoy the unknown of this adventure called life.